Monday, November 30, 2009

Making a list..

Hot damn. Got some stuff to write, the time to do it, the energy to do it, woo! Last week has been real busy! Evenings at school, from 10 to 10 - and then Thursday on Friday night, the entire night as well - working on the Clickable project. It's not as I had hoped but then again, when is it? I think I hit all the requirements, my player object moves fluently, and it keeps score! It's bugger all original, and the art is a(r)trocious. Ah man, I liked the project, but at the moment, I am relieved it's over. So relieved that I make horrible puns like a(r)trocious!

Right now on my way to the open day at school. Where wannabe students can drool over my and my classmates work. Well, not really, it's more informative and such. The past 2 years I've been going to these things at the HKU. For when I wanted to do something after highschool, then for when I did animation at the HKU, then after I left school, then when I wanted to join Game Design and now when I -do- Game Design. It's great hanging out with college buddies, and talking to new folks - interested in what you do. Nervous pre-graduates, worried parents, and enthusiasts. And weirdo's. Can't forget the weirdo's. The later two are the ones that get in most.

Anyway, with Clickable all but wrapped up my attention can shift to the things I've neglected. Unfortunately, a rather large list. Top on my priorities is a website for a college friend's brother. It's been stewing for two weeks now, and this is a paid project! I feel so bad. Ive always had a lot of trouble concentrating for certain things. Even though I am interested in it, sometimes it just.. doesn't intrigue me _enough_. It's annoying.

Secondly, Project AWESUM! Yes, now I finished Clickable I can steadily continue to pump my life away in AS3 still! I gotta say I am looking forward to gaining a foothold above and beyond what school set for me. I want to make an awesome game of it, and after speaking to our artists and designers - I -love- the style they're setting down. Maybe I pushed them into that direction a bit. But hey! I'm the group leader, damned. I do what I wish! Mwhahaa!

Speaking of group leading. Agh, although sometimes I feel I -must- lead, since everything would run amock without guidance, but it's not a thankful job. And I have a hard time -always- giving my own best for it as well. Mail sent a bit too late, forgetting a meeting. Stuff like that. It's not like I don't want to work on the project, I do very much, but sometimes all the scheduley stuff annoys me. Just look at my irregular and utterly randomly ranted blogposts now and then for proof.

And then, on a shared second place I guess. Although I name Team AWESUM first because of its inherent AWESOMENESS; my other homework! Art history assignments, and John Macco's homeworky stuff. For which updating my log is already a part. Hi there, sir, if you read this. I'm sorry for once drinking boozed up coke in your lesson. But hey! Anarchy! Live for the moment! Woo!
*cough* Moving on. I suppose part of this is also any assignments that went haywire. But since everything so far has gone well, that's a tiny part! The only things I am somewhat unhappy with are still approved of as 'passing' . But I want at least a 'good'! .. Setting goals is good am I right?

Thirdly, and oh man, up to four already and more in sight. This list of neglectance worries me. Updating my own website - the portfolio bugger. Gotta upload -ALL- my notes, blogposts, schoolwork, including each and every art assignment (60 postures of random people, and MORE - not looking forward to scan all that..) All in preparation for the Mid-Year assessment. Where dudes look at you to say you suck or rock. And then possibly tell you to get out of their school with your FILTHY paws. Or praise you, and give you cake. Not too worried about it, and I like cake.

And then.. sweet mother of mary antoinette ( which would be Empress Maria Christina.... number four! Making PRESENTS! Surprises for St. Nicolaas (for the non-Dutchies, a dutch present givin' holiday, catholic origins, it's also a tradition to make 'surprise' packages around the actual gift. As well as adding rhymes.. lots of work). And besides those, presents for my trip to Sweden. For my friiiends! Oh bugger. Work, work, work. But it's all fun, so that's cool.

Yes! So, ah. Bye!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

And then this.

Well, pff. It's been a while since I updated my log. It wasn't necessarily that I was being lazy. But well, it just slipped my mind! Work on other things was more prevalent.

Yep, still learning flash and actionscripting. And still working on my ISA-project. Had a meeting or two about it to discuss how to get it rolling. And so it's starting to roll now. That's how I roll. Ah. Ahaha. Yes. Worries about my self-perceived lack of motivation and discipline maintain, but I'm in an 'up' mood at the moment. Here's hoping it lasts. Woo!

Right, all this professional blogging aside; what can I tell you that I haven't yet spoken of? The prudence of Lady Hamilton? Shiprot in 18th century India? The meaning of life through a hamsters perspective, perhaps? So many interesting stories to tell. But let's go with.. *drumroll*


Going to Sweden! Yes! (Not the most inspiring topic. I know you were all waiting for the Shiprot story).. I was offered a ticket by two of my dearest friends in the icy land where penguins and polar bears roam free. My pride reared up and held an inspiring speech about not accepting charity. But then I stabbed him. I love Sweden, my friends over there, and I can't wait to go there again.

When I told my plans to my parents, they decided to take over that charity. So woo! Parent-funded trip! A guilt I can bear. I just hope my presence is as much loved by my mates as it is by me. Now I need to plan in some time to prepare preeesents. At least for the birthdays I missed. I want to give everyone presents - like some freaky lil' beardless santa (hohoho) .. but I doubt I can manage that. Workload and all. But I'll do my.. best. Agh, man, I just know I'm gonna fail that promise.

What's up with that anyway? All those promises and failing them? D'ah. Now.. My train is about to arrive, so unfortunately I cannot speak of the Shiprot in 18th century India. This delightful topic that will warm the hearts of many.. will have to wait.. till later.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Battling the encroaching tides of Snoreville.

Writing this on the way back from school. I am so extremely near to falling asleep. I barely slept the past night. I went to bed at 4:30 or 5 or something. Attempting to work on documents I should have started hours earlier. Why? Well, I know why, but it's just retarded. I didn't do the work I was supposed to, so in a ditch effort I tried to keep working on it. But I got distracted, and in the end, in the 5 hours after midnight I attempted to do stuff - I did barely anything. I should take the advice from Ted's mother (In 'How I met your mother') to heart: Nothing good happens after 2 am, so just go to bed.

Motivation remains a problem. Whole thing wouldn't have happened if I just did it sooner. But school inspires some motivation right the fuck back into me. Just came from an inspiring lecture by Karel Millenaar. Awesome dude. Amazing how some people can just enthuse you about stuff.

But now I barely have the energy to follow up on all the creative juices, by that stupid staying-up thing of last night. I feel this creeping tired ache passing all through my muscles. Ugh. But here I am, yet, writing instead of being slumped over in a chair. I need to keep more track. I need to -attempt- to be more in control. I need to remain involved, no matter how tired I am. So the least I can do is keep writing log entries. The very basic of keeping track. So I fight off sleep at least for now. And hopefully for a few hours tonight as well. I need to finish those documents I failed with. Oh boy.

There's all these ideas I have and had about keeping track. Ideas for schedules. Ideas for workmethods. But I never employ them, or only half-assed. I need to really dedicated myself to some stuff, and keep myself in the flow of things. Organise stuff. I know keeping absolute control is impossible, but striving to control and make sense of shit seems like a proper goal.

I think sleepy ranting is probably weirder than normal ranting. Oh well, I'd best stop. Almost at my trainstation. Stayed awake! Hurray! .. Now here's hoping I don't pass out in the metro. Last time I did that, it look half an hour longer to get home.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

In der deutschen Zug.

Ah. The luxuries of the German intercity I can occasionally enjoy. It drives the same way as my usual train, except at much larger intervals. Luxuries in the train include.. Silence, legspace, powersockets, german accents through the intercom, and a lady coming by with coffee. There is also a barwagon I believe. Man, shame I'm only in it for half an hour or so.

My writing conditions aside, stuff goes on. Still learning actionscripting - haven't done anything special yet but I can keep up with the lessons just fine. And I'm enjoying it. I should really boost off with the knowledge I have now and actually get to work on the game I'm supposed to build. I still need graphics for one.

Then the out-of-curriculum game, It's been started off. First meeting was rough, and not as I'd have liked. Especially the brainstorm session was a mess. I had advice from others, and I hope to do better next time. But truth be told, I wish I had prepared more for the meeting being held today.
Karel agreed to judge and support us. He's a bad-ass teacher and'll probably point out any flaw we have aggressively. That's a good thing, as I intend to learn from the many fails I'll probably commit.
Other class and year-mates are going to be making an out-of-curriculum game too. I have a feeling we inspired them (ie, they stole the idea) .. We feared that our team of 7 might be too big. It seems they got no problem with such; they're already up to 11. But as Ash - Baguette, pointed out.. Healthy competition is good right?

I've also had ideas floating around my head to make a sort of inspiration wall. Like the motivational posters, only composed of lots of images and quotes that inspire and move me. Filled with internet meme's, pop-culture, and designer wisdom. But it's just another idea on a heap of 'em. I hope I get to do it.. it might inspire me to finish the rest of that idea pile.

All those school and activity things aside. I saw the new Prince of Persia trailer. I wasn't all too impressed. People are saying they're going for a Pirates of the Caribbean sort of vibe. Still, the jokes or w/ever that was in the trailer didn't grab me at all. Not like Pirates had. I think this'd be a bigger success:


Monday, November 2, 2009

The weekend

The weekend has passed once more. Making this the 2nd of november; the birthday of my best mate; Marvin. He moved to Sweden last year, but most of my readers are probably keenly aware of that. Take care in there, fat and -old- guy. One day, one day.. I will make you that painting I promised. I will! Today, the missing of Sweden and all my swedish (and wannabe swedish) friends stings a bit more than usual.

Marvin barges in from adjacent lol.

Also, the second week of project 'Clickable'. Unfortunately not the name of a doomsday device, but just a flash arcade game. Which is cool as well.

To get it off my chest; I didn't do a damn thing this weekend. Lazy bugger, is I. I so promised myself to update my site, write some article, practice on my actionscripting and clean up my room. But none of it happened. Bugger. Instead I played some WoW. I killed off my main character in RP. A lousy death, but a death nonetheless. She didn't interest me anymore and besides, maybe this'll help me -not- play WoW next weekend. Still, it leaves a hollow feeling - like when a character dies in a book or tv-series you've been reading. But more personal and badly written.

Today I'll see if I can go through with the restart of the out-of-curriculum game I had planned. Going to school early to mill things over, before informing the rest. A school-friend, and other project-member; Sjors warned me that I may be inviting too many people. I fear he could be right. I'll probably have to tell people off. Hrm. I just wonder who'd pull their weight and who wouldn't. How big should the team be anyway? Hrm. Should I take it serious, or mellow out more? Things to consider.

Oh, and I finished reading the novel Arthas. I gotta say, I loved the start more than the ending. Which I reckon the whole storyline of this villain will be as well; judging from his performance ever since after The Frozen Throne story.